Mike got back into town tonight around 6:30 and he came to get me at about 7:10. I was so excited to see him! When we got in the car he leaned over and kissed my lips and was like "I missed you" I love his lips. They are so beautiful. Everything about him is beautiful. Anyway. We went and got some shaved ice *yum* and then sat in his car and ate it and talked about everything. We talked about while he was gone and what we would do why he was here on the weekends and everything.
Then we went to his friend Haydens house whom he thought I was going to think was SO much hotter than he is, but no lord! Hayden is cute yes. He's got nice eyes, but he's not cute. He's got dirty blonde hair so right there that was a no no for me. I like dark hair and eyes. So I was like "Mike! You are so beautiful! He's nowhere near as hot as you" and he was like "whatever!" haha! Well we watched a few hours of south park *very funny* and talked about all sorts of stuff.
I sat on Mike's lap for a bit, but most of the time he sat on mine. Aww aint that cute? lol. We kissed a lot. He's so fun to kiss. He has the softest lips and the most beautiful smile and eyes and arms and he's wonderful. *listen to me here!*
Well I had to be home by midnight *14 days and no more being home by midnight! mwahahaha* So we left Haydens at 11:47 and made it to my house 6 minuets early. =0) Weee. So I invited Mike in to watch Gothika with me b/c he had never seen it. *Still hasn't* We didn't watch the movie cause we talked about things and yes we made out a little.
But I talked to him about things I can't tell ppl. Like Linkin Parks- Breaking the habit came on and I told him how much the song meant to me and he was like why and I told him about how I'm trying to stop cutting and he was like "I'm here now" and then I talked to him about my depression, my autophobia, when Levi was killed, and when I was raped. Things I never tell anyone about. I never talk to anyone about Levi. I just have never been able to do it, but with him I could. He held me and kissed my face, and told me things were okay now. That he'd take care of me, that nothing would ever happen to me like that again. He makes me feel safe. Happy. Happy like I've never been before. Happy like I've been days without crying now. Happy like I haven't cut or even looked at my razors or scars or anything. It hasn't crossed my mind. My autophobia is under control right now. It's almost.... Perfect.
I'm so happy to be with him. Anyway. We looked at the clock and it was two and he has an eye exam tomorrow to get contacts at 9 am and he came from work (2 hours away took a shower then came to get me) he was sleepy and so was I. When he's gone I can't sleep.
Then Broken by seether and amy lee came on and it was like perfect timing cause I was telling about how when hes gone i feel broken.
Well he was on the couch and I laid on his chest atop of him and he was like "I could sleep like this" and I was like "me too" and he goes "one day baby".
I love everything about him. It's almost like we are made for one another. I see everything in a whole new light now. I think about things differently. It's weird, but he's changed everything around me for the better. =0) I love it. He's kinda jealous, but in a good way. A way that makes me feel wanted. Not to the point where you get mad or where he tells you what you will or will not do. But it's great. I told him "you have no reason to be jealous, but I like it that you are" and he was like "I'm glad I don't have to be, but I will be anyway. You're mine. I love that." =0) I love it too. I've never clicked with anyone like this. Its amazing. Its awesome.
He's coming to get me in the morning and we're going to his eye exam and then hanging out all day. Then Saturday morning he's taking me to pick my friend Jessica up from the train station at 5:51 am =0) Thetas early, but more the reason he needs to stay at my house for the night! =) yup yup.
Well I'm sooo dead tired. I'm going to go dream wonderful dreams. Goodbye all.

Oh my god. My favorite song right now is actually "Broken" by Seether/Amy Lee. I'm in love with the song. It has a special meaning to me, too. *sigh*
Hook me up with the Hayden kid. Dirty blonde hair is sexaii! LOL!
» hilikus on 2004-07-10 06:54:09

hayden
oh he is sooo oyour type go to www.haydenconner.com and you can see his pix. He's signed a contract to be a model, but I honestly think Mike is much better looking, but I'm over the whole blonde hair, blue eyes, skinny boy type. lolol! have him!
» ForbiddenRose on 2004-07-10 09:49:25

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